I have been received quite a few of your questions on my social media recently about the reasons why I left Bali? I wanted to share the answer in this post and my life update.
Bali Life
To be honest with you my time on the island came to an end, and I felt it so deeply in my soul, the same way I felt that I should leave London and move to Bali back in December 2019. I wrote the same post when I first moved to Bali and it’s interesting to see how much grew since then. I love my blog.
I was so fortunate to have skipped the London lockdown and moved to Bali just before the pandemic. I was allowed the space and time to fully focus on healing and creating and building my sustainable clothing brand and small creative social media agency that I’m currently growing in London.
As much as I love Bali,
I don’t see the island as a place to create a sustainable lifestyle if you are in a place where you’re still searching for things and places to see and do. I find Bali to be quite limiting in the options of things that you can do especially after one year living on the island.
Don’t get me wrong I did enjoy exploring all the amazing areas of this magical island and I’ve learnt so much about the culture, I’ve met new amazing people, I’ve danced a lot and I’ve worked on myself that much more than any other place I’ve ever been to. However, Bali does tend to throw you into a loop and repeat your experiences until you can break your patterns down and emerge from them as a new person.
A lot of things have happened to me from ghost hauntings to friends letting me down to more harmonious and happy things in my life, I will forever cherish the island as one of the most transformative places I’ve ever been to in my life. I want to fully live and expose myself to the contrast of the real world, I found Bali not to be the place for me.
I’ve learned so much and I built a strong foundation in myself and my business however, to fully grow and to expand to the level that I deem necessary for myself, I just find Bali to be too small for me.
The other thing that I didn’t want to be a full part which is the Balinese system i.e. Kitas holder so my earning potential was quite limited on the island. If you know me you know that I love to hustle and make money and I just felt London is a much more suitable and expansive place for me to do that.
London Life Update
Ever since I got back to London, I have acquired three new clients working on a brand-new collection of revamping and my entire website and not to mention that I’m meeting more amazing people than ever before. All whilst continuing to work on me and the spiritual practice that I’ve learnt in Bali.
One thing is for sure when your foundation is strong, only a few things can shake it up for you and when that happens, because you worked on yourself you have so many tools available to you to deal with it promptly and avoid spiralling down the low-frequency barrel.
In London,
I’m close to my family I have my friends that I’m reconnecting with, I’m dating new people that don’t fit my typical pattern i.e. the self-sabotaging pattern of only dating emotionally unavailable men. Thank God I have healed and broken these patterns down. Because of the work I’ve done. now when I meet somebody who is even slightly emotionally unavailable I run for the hills. Wishing them well and healing of course as I know how hard is to uncover traumas and set them free.
It has only been a couple of months since I moved back however I have experienced massive growth in my professional life and also my personal life. I have gained so much clarity about my friends and who are the people that I want to dedicate my time to. I am a firm believer in being selective about who you let into your close circle and using your feelings as a meaningful indicator to choose that is so fundamental to me.
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I have filmed the whole video about how I feel about things in the world that we currently live in so I hope you’ll be able to give it a watch. I’m taking things slow I’m putting even stronger foundations in London I feel like for the first time in my life I want to settle more and in one place and I do not need to run anywhere which is so important since I’ve felt like I didn’t belong for many years.
I finally realised that all that I need is within me and love and abundance is available to me in this present moment so I am focusing on living my life in the present mindfully and with gratitude in my heart for every single person and experience that is entering or exiting my life. I’m spending way more time with my family too and I’m just really so focused right now and the results are coming through that much faster.
I’m so blessed to have been able to pick up wherever I left off and with a brand-new mindset that I’ve built in Bali. I have separated myself from my comfort zone and moved away so far from home, I had no other option but to grow and evolve and fully depend on my faith in the universe and just trust that I’m able to bring all of my dreams into my reality.
I am blessed beyond to have you followed my journey this entire time and I will continue speaking my truth and my growth as I further embark on this journey of life.
Last words of advice
This entire London to Bali journey has thought me so much and if there’s one piece of advice that I can give you that is a really deep dive and dig into your limiting beliefs and things that are stopping you from living your best life and your full potential. You came to this earth to experience all the abundance and amazing things that this planet has to offer so for you to believe that you’re not worth it is just a limiting belief in your mind that you have picked up along the way. Stop it. I highly suggest that you focus on releasing this and finding that specific time in your life that programed you in believing that this is the truth.
Once I have released my limiting believes in my life, I’ve done a whole bunch of shadow work, I was able to create so much space and attracted so many amazing things and happiness into my life.
Build your foundation based on love and knowing that you are worthy of all that you wish and if you wish something it’s because it’s meant for you. Never stop until you achieve the reasons why you came to this beautiful planet and don’t think for one second that you are not worth it because trust me you are.
Sending you all lots of love and light and I hope you have a practice in place help you realize how amazing you are every single day
Love, Tania
